Wednesday, November 28, 2012

Slacking with a capital P

I am such a slacker.

I frequently wonder why I've received the calling to be primary president. I know it's cause I have something to learn...well, lot's of somethings.
My biggest problem I think is that I'm a slow learner, and that I'M LAZY.
I'm a PROCRASTINATOR with a capital P.
It's not good.
A few weeks ago, I was supposed to give the spiritual thought during ward council.
{The previous day was a baptism I had been in charge of pulling together. I'll just say that the baptism nearly didn't happen because I had neglected to find out who had access to the Stake Center and I had to make a last minute call to someone to get them to come over and open the building for me so I could get in and get the font filled. It wasn't exactly convenient for this sweet lady to stop what she was doing (juicing pomegranites) and come to my rescue.  Needless to say, this is all something I should have dealt with in the weeks leading up to the baptism, instead of scrambling at the last minute to find out who I needed to get a key from.}
Anyhow I overslept that Sunday morning and arrived late, so I didn't get to give my spiritual thought. Of course, I hadn't prepared for it anyway.
Because I'm a Procrastinator.
I sat in the car for a moment, "preparing" my thought before I headed over to the church.
I was thinking about this problem of mine...procrastination. So I looked it up in the topical guide.
What I found, kind of startled me.

"Procrastination, Procrastinate see also Apathy; Idleness; Slothful. "
There was also some mention made about making excuses.

Idleness? Slothful? ME?
Well, I looked up idleness too.
I looked up a scripture referenced in the Doctrine & Covenants.  D&C 68:31:

 31 Now, I, the Lord, am not well apleased with the inhabitants of Zion, for there are bidlers among them; and their cchildren are also growing up in dwickedness; they also eseek not earnestly the riches of eternity, but their eyes are full of fgreediness.

Um, hit a little close to home, I gotta' tell ya'. And I've got a whole pocketful of excuses. Excuses why my children are growing up in wickedness.
I have terrific kids.
They are not by any means wicked.
But, they're not the way I imagined they would be. They have their own thoughts, and I'm not sure their testimonies are as strong as they could be.
Because I haven't helped them build them up. 
Because I have to work nights. I'm not home to do family scripture study, and family prayer, and family home evening. (excuses)
Beause Ashley has to get up early (4 in the morning early) to get ready for school, out the door by 5:15---it's too early to get the other kids up for family prayer and scripture study. (excuses)
Because I'm tired. (excuses)

It's because I'm lazy. It's because I'm idle. It's because I'm slothful. 
Plain. and. simple.  
And the Lord is not pleased.

But He loves me. And he sees fit to chastise me. And I'm SO grateful that he does.

I just hope I can live up to His expectations and overcome this shortcoming of mine.


Sherrie Shepherd said...

You shouldn't be so hard on yourself. I think we all have times when we feel like we're not doing as much as we think we should. I have a horrible habit of comparing myself to others (especially my neighbors and ward members) and feel very inadequate. But we have to remember, we all have different strengths and weaknesses, and I guarantee there is someone in your life that looks at you with admiration, and wonders how you do it all and wishes they could be more like you. You are amazing!

Raiven said...

Thanks so much for this post! Of course it's not easy realizing these things but when you do, change of heart happens! I needed to hear that procrastination is no bueno. Thanks for the kick in the pants! haha

Garden of Egan said...

That was a great post!
I'm such a procrastinator too. Thanks for the scriptural reference!

I'm off to study it a little deeper.

Dolly said...

Hey Lady M! Long time no visit. Thought I'd drop in and say...YOU'RE PRIMARY PREZ??? Awesome Mikki:D You have a heart of gold and enough spirituality for the whole lot of us out here in blogging-land. No need to worry. I've lost count on the times I've missed meetings in RS. Everyday is a new day though...and we just keep on swimming, keep on swimming!!! Big hugs from a little Eskimo lady. {{{Squeeze*Tight}}}

Anonymous said...

i'm a slacker, too! BUT MAYBE we both will do better in 2013~ :)